From summer last year of , some events happened that gave a sore feeling and I disconnected in my heart from the church I attended. Nevertheless I kept going,semper fidelis. But with special occasions I took a look in other churches, taking a breath in meetings with prophetic worship. Holiday season came, very convenient and I felt free to go to different meetings,though I never quit going to intercession I was not going to the cell group, but that was not a solution: God, help me out. I was prayed with and they had the image of a heart operation which I needed to recover from. And during quiet time I received the verse that describes Hagar with Ismael in the desert, and an angel asking her what she is fleeing from, when talking about this verse in a special setting it dawned on me what I was fleeing from in church, so I went back and finally forgave what I had to forgive, what made it a lot easier to go to church, i even attended cell group again trying to let go of control. And yet my former vision, enthusiasm for this church did not come back, the question remained: God, where is the place you want me to be? My oldest son went to another church, His House, and hearing about changes that were made there I went to see for myself, and during worship my spirit knew: this is the place and I made a decision, said goodbye to the people in my former church, got the blessing from the pastor which brought up a lot of emotion for I had learned so much from him, all the 6 years there he kept faithfully praying with me to let God have His way, sharing the word to help me in the battle against strongholds.
And now I go to His House, and only have to offer faithfulness, faith, kindness and a love for worship. How will things develop, what's in Gods mind for me in this church? I know something knew is coming, power to be revealed over people to extend Gods kingdom